Monday, 5 April 2010


I can't believe Steve and I have been together for six months already. Time sure does fly when you're having fun. Don't get me wrong, this past six months have been the hardest (emotionally) I've ever had and I am constantly exhausted but it's also the happiest I have been. I've never laughed so much or felt so at peace with myself. Thanks for that Mr Snake :)

We were talking the other day about how much we have both changed since we've been living together. I've had many relationships in the past were my partner has told me they love me just the way I am but then all they have tried to do is change me. It's great to be in a relationship now, were I am changing, not because I am told there is something wrong with me but because I want to.

Last year, I was medicated up to the eyeballs, staying up till the early hours of the morning drinking myself to sleep and living a life which revolved around the computer. Now I'm up most days by 6.00, in bed by 9.30, off my medication, exercising, have cut down on my drinking heaps and actually enjoying getting out of the house and spending time with people in person.

Actually, I think I have the better half of the deal 'cause Steve is working harder than ever, getting up earlier and staying up on his days off to debate the terrible singing on Idol. He swore he would never watch reality TV. He says he watches because he knows I love it and he wants to spend time with me but he's the first to turn on the telly on Wednesday night ( Master Chef NZ) night. Sorry babe, and you thought your secrets were safe with me.

Anyway, we have lost a lot of friends and family but I haven't given up hope. It's true that at times like this, you really find out who your true friends are. My parents and sister have been really supportive. It took a little while for them to get to know Steve but they can see how happy he makes me. Maybe in time, others will realise that too. In the meantime, we are as happy as pigs in shit.

I'm thinking of doing a weekly, Living With Whitesnake post over on our joint blog (see toolbar for link). Often, something will happen and we both say, 'We really should blog about this." We both have so much going on at the moment that we run out of time to write. I'll let you know when I post over there anyway.

Hope you had a fantastic Easter.
Love KB

I'll leave you with a poem...


A poem in my pocket
close to my heart
it's there to remind me
of your love
when we're apart

A poem in my pocket
I read every day
it's short and so simple
Yet shows you love me
in every way

A poem in my pocket
Brings tears to my eyes
I know it's always there
but each day
it brings new surprise



Missy said...

Karen I'm truly happy your happy and you've found peace. With change comes hardship at time and you can't make someone like or even see why the change was needed. All you can do is focus on you and allow time and space to mend what can be mended.

I'm still around, not as vocal but I'm still here kiddo. Many hugs to you both.

KB said...

Hi Missy girl,

You have been in my thoughts. I miss you. Email me when you can to update me :)

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful post KB! I see I've missed spme big changes in your life, and there have been some big ones in mine too, we'll have to have a catch-up chat one say soon. I am thrilled to see you so happy. You are an amazing, gorgeous woman and have been an inspiration to me from the day I met you. I think Steve is a lucky man, and if he makes you this happy, then I love him to bits too. I did think you were with the band WhiteSnake LOL, but I do love that name. Kisses and hugs to both of you!

KB said...

Polli - It's so nice to see you here. Thank you for the kind words. A chat soon sounds wonderful. Love you xxx

Anonymous said...

Karen, this a beautiful post. I don't need to tell you how happy I am for you both, you and Steve really are special friends to me. Bless you both.

KB said...

Keith - Thank you from both of us.


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