30 Days Of Me - Day 9
Something you’re proud of in the past few days.
There's not one thing I can put my finger on specifically over the past few days but basically I'm proud of being the real me. After spending many years pretending to be something I wasn't to make others happy, I finally reached the place where I said enough is enough. It feels wonderful to just 'be' rather than trying to be something I'm not and to know that people who really care about me love and accept me just the way I am. Yay, go me!
I'll be back later
Love KB
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i think that is definitely something to be proud of...pretending can be so tiring...
ReplyDeleteIt's exhausting.
ReplyDeleteThat's a major accomplishment!
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well deserved.
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I love you babe......it's that simple! xxxx
ReplyDeleteYEAH! GO KB!!!!! Breakthroughs are AWESEOME! I just went through one of mine, so I'm even more super-psyched to hear that about you!
ReplyDeleteI must explain, though, because it's really weird: On Oct 19, I had this feeling that I was a real person with real personal space, and everything was real and there were boundaries between objects, and even the thoughts in my head, and I didn't have to think about it -- there's a new type of 'structure' in my head!
` What this means is that I can keep track of objects in relation to one another (i.e. in a room), or keep shopping lists in my head, or keep schedules without consciously thinking about it ALL the time -- which is hard enough when you have ADHD!
` This psych teacher who takes an interest in me because I can tell him what it's like to go through childhood development as an adult told me that most people gain this ability at around 2 1/2 years old.
` I'm only 2 1/2 years old?! Gotta blog about this, but I've been so busy HAVING FUN with my new perception of the world!
` Apparently, people who are horribly traumatized their whole life don't develop this ability like most people -- what's funny is that two years ago I developed abstract thought, and some people never develop that at all!
But, relevantly, why did I not develop this ability before? Because I was so busy trying to please other people, and they were all violating me and not giving me privacy, so I had no boundary between myself and the rest of the world -- from my crazy dad to my crazy roommates! Luckily, the last (10th) one only comes by at 4 in the morning, so I don't have to put up with his crap all day.
` I'm pretty safe now, and that's why my brain changed! YAAAAYYYY!
I LOVE being my own person, don't you?
Thank Jingle.
ReplyDeleteLove ya Whitesnake xxxx
SEE - I've missed you. Thanks for sharing and don't be a stranger :)
ReplyDeleteMarja - YES!
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